steem ship 18

do you understand my anger
can you feel my rage
do you see the goal im after
can you let me out of my cage
do you no what needs released
can you be the one
the one person who will unleash
unleash the only son

the bombs started falling when he got the letter
only if the president could be a little better
when he joined the force he thought he would get stronger
now its an embarassment and wants it 2 be no longer
the first shell he took was leaving
only if he knew he was under achieving
i rather be in a factory making plastic
then fighting out there with a semi automatic
the war belongs to the ones who start it
george bush needs to rethink the thing he started
only if he knew back then
all the trouble he was getting in
we loved him when he was on top and hate him while hes down
to be honest i hated him then and i hate him now
when will there be a change around here
instead of shooting ourselves every 4 years
and im so anxious to see
what will this country come to be
it all started with what was in the evnelope
it all ends with the stuff we wrote

he left here a few years ago
and hes still alive as far as i no
ive lost count of the letters he sent
idk y he joined, i dont know y he went
i pray to god everynight
that he will make it through the day alright
idk if he looks at the moon anymore
bcuz i dont think he believes in hope anymore
which makes me sad and feel as bad as him
i hope he has someone fun 2 fight with
this holy war has no reason of being
we are blinded by the fact we arnt seeing
lose lose situation no matter how you face it
the vase will be broken no matter how you break it
time will become a factor soon
we are running out of time and losing platoons
general bush will come to the rescue
capture some jafar just so he can execute
i remember what he used 2 say
"y am i here anyway"
idk what to tell him anymore
when i look to the moon my eyes get sore
bcuz i no im looking at somthing
that some day will become nothing
who knows what this crazy ass will do
probly shoot down the moon to
bcuz soon he will realize there is no hope left
he will realize that this war caused the popes death
hmm i can feel it getting worse
i just cant wait to be laying under that flag in a hurse

and someday when he gets away from getting shelled
he will whipe up the courage to just yell
to hell with the law and idc if i go to hell
pop one in his brain and see how mr bush felt




JC

preporation

whisper in my ear
with words of fright and fear
o plz leave me a tear
so the world knows you were here
what are ya gonna do
when your lifes stuck up with you
who will you turn to
whats your point of view
tell me when to start
weve been close and far apart
and now weve gone this far
to far to still have questions in our hearts
whats going to be next
by your actions i am perplexed
now im a living mess
to you i must confess
tell me is he nice
does he to give good adivce
has he been there all your life
will he be there 2night

wont you let go and grab hold again
wont you plz give me a sign
tell me will we ever be best friends again
tell me will is there a dead line for time


JC

dword

this little boy wears his name well
puts the world on his shoulders and brings his parents through hell
ties his shoes with his eyes closed
trips over them and just breaks his nose
sometimes he dosnt even no whats going through his mind
i wonder what was happening when he got the dui
its like a poor little bird with so many failed attempts to fly
everyday he gets back up bcuz he knows he must try
search my heart and find some answers
we all at times are second glancers
take a glance at me and one is enough
i got cuts on my face that need sown shut
feel around and see if you can find my teeth
they keep getting knocked out cuz my foot keeps kicking me
i try to win, try to survive
when i get scared i just close my eyes

hold me when im down
let me go when i am ok
rub my face into the ground
it dosnt matter anyway
hold my hand with a death grip
but you gotta let go sometime
you dont no who your fighting with
i dont even no whats going through my mind

picture me
with a family
little boy with a mohawk just watching me
watching every move i make
and every breath i take
sleep beside him so we can both fall awake
dont mind my smell, i got as a child
you to will have in a little while
stay of the puffer stay off the crunk
no when to stand up and hold your tongue
plz god help me, its all i ask
forgive my child, of my past
one wrong brings no rights
its goes on
your whole life
jesus where you at
we need ya plz no that

hold me when im down
let me go when im ok
rub my face in the ground
it dosnt matter anyway
hold my hand with a death grip
but you gotta let go some time
you dont no who ur messin with
o god weve all lost our minds




JAYSEE

moments notice

the angel spreads her wings
to this good world she brings
so, much life
it will be a struggle 2 survive
my mind is a mess
cuz i dont wonna confess
lord im just a troubled man
i yield to stick to this plan
o i hate 2 see it end
o go hold on to your friends

and my heartstops beating 4 one moment
i can see it turning back for me again
the sun falls down and the moon takes its place
then the lord comes and takes us all away

the angel then looks at the crowd
they r screaming so damn loud
yet she can hear his voice stand out
2 bad he is dead now
then the angel opens his eyes
for the first time
and he sees the world from above
and he finally sees true love
and he finally seees what hes missing
he spent his whole life just wishing

my heart stops beating for one moment
i can see him coming back 4 me again
the sun falls down and the moon takes its place
here he comes now he has come 2 take me away

and my mind feels like its dead
so many memories running trough my head
i can not sort them out on my own
damn i hate mourning all alone
then the angel comes 2 my side
watches over me at night
i awaken and see her eyes
hazel crystal eyes
and then i started to cry
bcuz i knew inside
there was a person inside
and the angel was alive
talking to me

my heart stopped beating only 4 one moment
i can see him turning back 4 me again
the sun falls down and the moon takes its place
what a good soul the rope had 2 throw 2 waste
my heart stopped beating only 4 one moment
i feel him riding in off the blue ocean
the tide comes in and seeps in to place
then the tide sweeps me away






specialize



JC

clearly

eyes are low
watching the ground
the silence falls
theres not a sound
everyone is getting teary
and no one sees it clearly
i stand against the wall and watch them cry
i stood with them and watched them die
i talked with them when they were laughing
i spectated them when they were thrashing
spitting words at one another
when they should be acting just like brothers
but they r so seperated when they are in hate
but they r brought 2gether when they come out of the gate
like feathers 2 a bird
like the wise mans word
2gether and true is the equation
victory is there destination
will they succeed is undecided
3 more years we gotta stay undivided

broken hearts go along with the broken wing
and that involves breaking everything
everything in your path is bound for nothing
take a step into the future and see what it brings
is the jesus of 2morro as good as the one 2day
good cant describe jesus bcuz all he does is takes
our father who sits in heaven, hallowed be thy name
but i dont blame him 4 being lazy when all we do is blame
our eyes are all teary
so now we cant see clearly
which deprives us from seeing the truth and whats right
which deprives us from believing in christ
im so taunted by the situation at foot
im so haunted by thieves i crooked
only....no one can save us now
if only god could save us now

i come into the room i see the heads held down
those scary eyes are looking into the ground
on the door we ignore the pound
its so loud but we do not hear the sound
we hate to admit to our disadvantages
then again thats another reason life is how it is
we gotta stop acting black and acting white
they gotta stop accusing us and start living there life
vice versa indeed
we all hate eachother but thats how its gonna be
but many times im the one left in the rain
left 2 soak up your tears that you drain
but no i dont wonna feel your depression
i watched you so long and i learned my lesson
hell no not me, not this time around
it might be quite in here but i hear some sound
some frustration is grumbling in all of our eyes
we just cant wait 2 shout it 2 the skys
but then again thinking about all this makes me dreery
i do no trust any person thats near me
and my eyes are not so teary
and im finaly seeing things clearly



JC

raise your voice

raise your heart
raise your mind
tears in the past
cuz i left it all behind
whats back there now
stays as is
and ill find out how
to handle this
ive been on fire
and ive been dowsed
it all comes down 2 desire
not the words coming out of your mouth
speak the wisdom
here the knowledge
listen with respect
and respect will be fallin

raise your self with passion and love
keep in mind of your creator above
tantalize
criticize
open your eyes
and realize
time is money
money is time
dead is 2 live
live is 2 die
one complication
could make a grown man cry
one segragation
could turn a grown man wry
on and on i try
to make it through this world
on and on i survive
raise that little girl

my future lerks in the distance
i wish i could view it just 4 one instance
i hate standing alone
my faults are scratched into stone
and when my heart stops beating
i might be dead but i wont stop receving
love, respect, and honesty
thats the upside of living honestly
truth is a bunch of lies formed 2gether
once in line they will never be distethered
i raise my heart
i raise my mind
i take it all back
and awaken inside
i feel my brain
buldge out of my skal
but im not smart
i no nothing at all
i feel my heart
beat out of my chest
im not in love
im just like the rest
you cant judge me no more than they
u can hate me
but u cant change what i want 2 say

raise your shirt
show the world whats underthere
and dont you tell me
that you are not aware
of the scares you hide
the rules you live by
raise your hand
answer some questions
teech the world
and learn your own lesson
i rage over struggles
and when they double
i pray to god that i will make it through
then i take a look outside and i see you
i want you in here where its warm
even though your under the roof
it dosnt mean that your in from the storm
i feature many great attributes
i can be yours but its up 2 you 2 choose
i am no different from everybody else
they just make it appear they are someone else
and when im standing in the pue
with my black suit
handing out tissues
crying over you
laying in your coffin
and you hit the last nail
the one that forclosed your life
the one that went off the scale
i fear for you
im here for you
dont ever fear that i wont be true
dont worry about ever being forgoten
we are weeved just like cotton
raise your head
raise your heart
dont play dead
and take a part
only wee can do this
but we must stick 2gether
only we can proove this
so lets face the weather
raise your voice
make it your choice





JC


the best

more than i did b4

can u feel the wind come of the river
i cant anymore
when i think about it i start to shiver
more than i did b4
can u feel the light rain fall
drop by drop it comes
in the end we regain it all
but 2 be saved we still must run
can u feel the waves crash against the shore
just as hard as u landed
i love more than i did b4
that just may seem a bit outlandish

can you hear the peeps of leaves
brustle on there branches
but the big forest muffles anything that can be seen
2 give the smaller things better chances
can u hear the people screaming your name
as loud as loud can be
look 4 ppl lined up for the reason of shame
as far as the eye can see
can you hear the birds singing there songs
over the black bear's roar
they sing in harmony when they get along
better than they did b4

can you see the darkness shadowed by itself
shooting itself in the foot
see the poor man by himself
only giving back all he took
can you see the darkness fall upon the child
and hes not knowing what hit him
you let it go on 4 a little while
but soon u will be with him
can you see stars at night have lost there twinkle
as you lay there stoned on the floor
i must say the tinkle i tinkled
was more than i did b4

the world it self is getting better
but its preparing 4 a bigger loss
one by one we all grow up
preparing to serve a better cause
and all i did b4 was sit around and grow older
but no knowledge was seeping through
my shell of disaster sat on me as i got colder
i learned nothing new
wisdom speaks but knowledge listens
and peace only brings more war
the clouds may be thick but the stars still glisten
more than they did b4




JC

have u ever felt

have u ever felt
like all u wonna do is cry
have u ever felt
the erge 2 take suicide
have u ever, felt
ur blood stop cold
this is getting old
and old is getting young

have u ever felt
like the world was on ur shoulders
have u ever felt
like a captured soldier
have u ever, felt
the world was coming 2 an end
and thats where ull find me my friend
at the end

have u ever felt
that life just isnt fair
have u ever felt
like not taking in any more air
have u ever, felt
like ur head is about 2 explode
we dont rebuild we reload
reload

have u ever felt
like he shouldnt have gone
have u ever felt
that ur gonna be the next one
have u ever, felt
like eating your own spit
thats all it is
spit

have u ever felt
ur ugly like the bark on trees
have u ever felt
like the world was bowing on there knees
have u ever felt
ur mind being blown open
by the tide of the ocean
blown open
blown, open

have u ever felt
like ur back was getting rubbed
have u ever felt
your feet are getting caught
have u ever, felt
like me the confused one
im the next 2 be gone
confused

you love me i love you
so abused
that i cant open my eyes
and i take another stride
towards you
and my mind
goes numb
and where is this thing called love?

have u ever felt
like you were in love
and you were being caried
by the angels above
have u ever felt
like ur life aint worht living
i do every day
u wont see me stop giving
have u ever felt
a needled through ur heart
i guess thats just apart
of being alive
i wont survive
being alive
have u ever, felt?



JC

seizer

i look at him looking at me
in his eyes i wonder what he sees
that poor little boy all grown up
that poor little toy who wasnt played with enough
..

im no dryer than him when we r standing in the rain
im no higher than him when we r set on the plain
im no better than he when we both fail
and all hes waiting for is a time 2 prevail
..

and theres something left in his washed out brain
theres something in there that could yeild his pain
until the seizer seizer
all he wants 2 do is plz her
..

i look into those eyes looking out the window
i wonder if where hes looking is where he wants 2 go
i see him close his eyes and start shaking
that is when his true self reawakens
theres a butterfly inside that gentle monster
and he never really ment to ever haunt her
until the seizer seizer
all he wants 2 do is plz her
but its so hard when ur brain is so dumb
the novicane just makes ur heart numb
no corresponding
no bonding
o but hes no wetter than me
i wonder what he sees

it must be so hard
2 no your weakness
but you cant do nothing at all
u can only get weaker
but when he stands up 4 himself
his fight is everlasting
and no body else
knows what its like 2 be flurmasting
i see those eyes looking at me
i start 2 realize that he really cant see
i touch his shoulder then his eyes swell up
blood shot red, he has had enough

seizer seizer
he dosnt no that he really needs her
but she dosnt no not a thing
and thats the way it is
ur cheated out of a kiss
when god seems 2 be ur best friend
ur on the right end




JC

curtain fall

she silence fell like a curtain
as fast as he did
but wernt so certain
if it was time 2 call it quits
but as we rise 2 the occasion
and here the persuasion
for all the ppl
and for the whole nation
we just fall 2 the stage

my gun is loaded
my brains exploding
i dont no what 2 do
so i wait a moment
i take an opportunity
2 express my unity
i cant stand this anymore
so take the gun 2 me
they say when in doubt buckle up
when i am im doubt i remain untouched
i place it down
i spin it around
whom ever it lands on
is dead on the ground
is this worth it
should we shoot the bullet
with our wicked mouths we r cursing
after the shot silence falls like a curtain

my eyes are resting on my hands
all bcuz i dont understand
my jaw is lower than a bad joke
i wait 4 the right time 2 bring it up and
choke
on my words and on my lines
i feel the presure building behind my eyes
b4 u no it everythin will be gone
ppl r gonna die but u just gotta move along

there he is in his tight girl jeans
hood over the hair of a beauty queen
his eyes r made of piercing gold
his blank stare never gets old
he takes a step towards me and opens his eye
opens it 2 a bran new life
throw down the hood and drops the pack
of cigarettes that were laced on his back
he tells me no more does he want 2 live
this way

and the silence falls like a curtain
as fast as he got up but he still wasnt certain
what is he living for
what is he looking for?
the silence fall like a curtain
hes sick and tired of always hurting
where is the light from here
beyond the eyes, its in his tears



JC

out of the darkness

he slips of his precious ring
now he knows hes lost everything
again and again
we just dont no when
he will flap his wings

and he will fly
out of the darkness
fly into the light
he was so harmless
2 world but not 2 himself
no body else
knew what was going on
until he was gone
now we kno

but we r still in shock
and our hearts remain stoped
but b4 we move on
we must sing one last song
then the sadness can be dropped
i can see him in the tide
swept away on a ride
but ull never make it 2 shore again
if ur swept out once thats where u remain
he left us all so deprived


cirlce the mistakes on his face
what did he do wrong what risks did he take
the lies that he told make me so angry
bcuz if the truth was told i would be so much more happy
but when the stars come out at night
im resured that ill be alright
cuz i see his reflection the sky
and then he flys
our of the darkness
into the light
hes so harmless
2 the world but not 2 himself
no body else
knew what was going on
until he was gone
o now i no



JC

reason 2 live

life
it seems so unclear
all i see is shattered glass
when i look in the mirror
the independence of some of these folks
got it going good
but they r bound to choke
some have been doomed from the start
but who am i 2 judge
i have no bigger of a heart
once in a while i take a good look
but i dont like what i see
bcuz every glance i take ends with a argument
bcuz this isnt how i want it 2 be

life
seems so unpredictable
even tho we no whats gonna happen
live or die, so conflictable
jesus said u will live forver
if you follow him
but i no somebody who loved him well
went 2 hell he did
life is like a sack of marbles
its full of many kinds
some are bad some are marvels
it depends on how strait of a line

life
seems so retarded at times
but thats how everything is
at some points the line is fine
but that depends on how much u give
life is like a horror movie
its scary and u never no what ur gonna get
i wont believe till u proove me
that i still got something left

life
its so dull and dreadful
but yet i still am here
i wonder if this is 4 real
or if it is just fear
jesus said i was the branch
but then again who has seen him
preech on top of the mountain
yet we still believe him
i dont go by what ppl say
i just go by what i think
it improoves a little every day
stronger link 2 link

life
seems so unclear
all i see is shattered glass when i look in the mirror
almost makes my eyes tear
then i remember what i am doing here
life
it seems so pointless 2 me
but thats how everything is
atleast i have someone like you
thats a good enough reason 2 live



JC



you

through the tunnel

im coming in out from the rain
just so i can go right out again
the inside might seem so warm
but its so much better out in the storm
i cant look up 2 no body
cuz the rain blinds my eyes
so i stare at my feet
until the moment i die
and when i feel the moment is right
i will take a last stand, and come inside
when the rain stops
and everyone comes out
in flip flops
i just want 2 shout

y do you always
stay inside when it rains
and u only come outside
when the suns shining bright
when r u gonna open your eyes
and realize
that you gotta face the hard side sometime

when im caught in the middle of the struggle
and there seems 2 be no light at the end of the tunnel
i just keep on walking towards it
and as long as i live
ill be walking on the same road bcuz that is my destiny
ill take life as it comes thats what i will always believe
im so dreadful
and whats pitiful is
my mind is disolved
into the rain that falls on me
only if i could see
there r shadows lirking behind me
and footsteps in the sand
when there is only one set
i was in his hands
and thats where i am presently
with closed eyes as he carries me
through the struggles
through the tunnel



jc

i wonna make you cry

i wonna make you cry
so i dont feel like im the only one
i dont want you 2 die
cuz then id be the lonely one
i wonna make you cry
it seems that im the only one
i wonder what i will be like when i survive
survive being the lonely one
i wonna make you cry
so that i have good company
i want 2 be at your side
so i have someone 2 comfort me

i wonna see those tears
fall off your cheak
and we cant see that we r all blind
bcuz we cant hear eachother speak
im tangled in barbed wire
no chance 2 escape
im caught in the fire
on the barbed wire stake
i hate trembling in fear
i hate being afraid
and when my future starts looking clear
it beings 2 all fade away

i wonna make you cry
i wonna make you cry

when i look at the moon at night
i just tremble and start to cry
i think about what im living for
i start 2 peek through the cracks of the locked doors

i wonna make you cry
bcuz i hate being like this
y wont u open your eyes
and stop eating the grit
i wonna make the world cry
so we all are together
and as much as i try
we will never be tetherd

when i look at the blue sky
i just tremble and start 2 cry
knowing i will never make it
so i start 2 believe i will make it
my sense of urgancy gets me there
i hate life cuz it just aint fair

i wonna make you cry
i wonna make you cry




JC

jason

0n my knees
is where i spend most of my life
i say plz
plz help me set things right
here i go
im messing up again
take a smoke
and my brain becomes inflamed
i smell the ashes
i fade 2 black
my my crashes
i want you back
because i miss you jason
on some occasions
i sit down and let it all out
thats what cryings all about
i take the time 2 whipe my eyes
i take the time 2 realize, again
you are gone

youve gone home
and as much as i want u here
there is hope
in every single tear
i wont forget you
october is the hardest time 2 live
i wont ever forget you
i wont forget, and i wont forgive
my heart stops, i go deaf
i hear nothing xcept ur footsteps
my eyes see, what no other have seen
and yet my hands are clean
yet my hands

i miss you jason
the ocean seems so lonely now
i miss you, jason
i just cant seem 2 figure out
y not me
i feel so, guilty
and my guilt blinds me of my past
i just hope this will not last

its like taking a stage dive
into a an empty mosh pit
and if u were alive
u would still be doing it
my head hurts, my eyes r swelled
there is no one here i can tell
what i feel
so i just reveal
it 2 the world
2 the world

I miss you jason
ur handprint lays upon the mirror
o jason
i sure do wish u were here



i would lend you
just one breath
for just one moment more
of you
i would give you
all i got left
what do i got 2 live for
what should i do?

jason where have u gone
jason what is going on
i miss you


oct 10th- it will be 2 years on the 10th




JC

tail of dove

where the sky is blue
is where i know ill find you
ill be the cloud in the sky
fly away little dove
fly into the trap of love
ill be what ever you like

take a breath of the fresh air
warn me about whats out there
ill take a step in your direction
and be the one 2 face my reflection
jumpstart into the underground
tell me everything u have found
beat me in with your remarks
one love, one chance from the start

so slowly
u waste me
im getting 2 the point of no return
i wait here
i face fear
take a breath of what i have earned
how many will it take 2 get 2 the middle
how many guesses will get 2 the anser 2 this riddle
i sit here
and watch the clouds go bye
till i catch your eye

its caustic
its so toxic
everything is so grey
take the bullet that comes my way

mouth full of teeth
whats beneath
i fix this mistake b4 it becomes hell
ripping wound
dying soon
i need someone that i could tell...

...where the sky is blue
ill know i will find you
plz fly, fly away my love
chase the tail of the dove
.,.,.,.



jc




#14

hello friend

hello my friend
are you there 4 me till the end?
will u be next 2 me when i am down
will u be there 2 lift me off the ground
plz help me back onto my feet
get me back 2 what i used 2 be
will u lend me a hand when mine are full
will u bring me in from the cold
will u give me a smile when i am in need
will u give me push 2 stop the bleed
will u lend me a tear when i am out
will u lend me your voice when i am 2 weak 2 shout
will u be there for me when i am at withers end
will u be there for me hello friend

so cold

low
and everything is so grey
i know
that everything wont go my way

soo cold
i hate 2 say goodbye
soo cold
the rain washes out the tears in my eyes

the rain
falls down 2 the feet
again and again
i have lost everything
i know
that anything, anything is , ok
and everything is so, grey

so cold
i hate to say, goodbye
soo damn cold
the rain washes out the tears in my eyes
afraid of it
now i must go
live my way through this
oh



the word
is in the other room
standing strong and tall
i fall, i fall
the law
is sitting beneath your eyes
watch them fall
thats all i saw, i saw

so cold
i hate 2 say goodbye
soo cold,
the rain washes the tears from my eyes



***i let go of the past now
i no that its 4 the best now
i hate 2 say goodbye 2 her
i continue 2 live in my world
so cold
my mind is raped by frustration
my eyes, are blind, from the complication
im so cold

ah, so low
i know, know
that now, you know
so everything is so grey, grey
and the rain, washes away, away



JC



#13

hate 2 lie

when i lay my head on my pillow at night
i say 2 myself its gonna be alright
then i think 2 my self i gotta try
then i think 2 my self i hate 2 lie
and when i pick my head off my pillow at the start of each day
i say 2 my self its gonna be ok
i take a breath of the fresh air outside
then i think 2 my self i hate 2 lie
go 2 school and sit and learn
i dont get the grades i deserve
but at the end of each class when im walking in the hall
i see some ppl rise over the ppl that fall
on the bus ride home i look out the window
theres so many things out there that i should know
i take a deep breath and i close my eyes
i say 2 my self its gonna be alright

then all of a sudden
i go 2 sleep forever
and just like that
its so quickly over
and then i wake up
to your lovely eyes
i say 2 my self its gonna be alright
then i think 2 myself i hate 2 lie

lifes like climbing a tree
ur not satisfied till u get 2 the peak
but when u get there it all falls 2 the ground
uve done what u must and u go without a sound
but thats not the way i want 2 leave
yet im still at the bottom of my short tree
someday i will cut it down
bcuz i hate 2 see anything fall 2 the ground
i punch the mirror bcuz it gives false relfections
i get nothing from all my collections
i pray 2 god, soon may i die
i hate life, then i think 2 my self i hate 2 lie
write me a song that includes my name
so they dont come 2 me when they need someone 2 blame
i got nothing that they dont got out there
the only thing they got that i dont is being scared
i tear my heart into pieces not because
im an emotional person who hates being in love
then i say 2 my self i hate 2 lie

when i lay my head on my pillow at night
i pray 2 god everythings gonna be alright
but whats the chances of that beings seen through
theres always that chance when it comes 2 you
and when im laying there in a hospital bed
all alone with that same pillow under my head
i will grab on and hold so tight
and say 2 myself everythings gonna be alright
and when im flying up in the sky
looking down on the world where i died
i love all the things that i saw go by
then i say 2 myself i hate 2 lie





JC



#12

eye of the bird

the world that i see
is changing b4 me
and i am so weak
sick of violence
sick of ths silence
who will be the one 2 speak
my life commences
im on a defensive
because i am afraid
i watch everyone struggle
in there own popped bubble
y are we afraid of change?

our goal is 2 be perfect
but its not worth it
bcuz in the end we all die
god almighty maker
denies being our creator
bcuz no one is willing 2 try
i say one word 2 u
what did u want me 2 do
i was just as deep in as you
fly away birdy
tell me what u see
from the birds eye view
burnt in the ashes
of the lighting flashes
i stand like a rod
i ask 2 plz go home
i ask 2 not be alone
i ask where is my god

o my visions
have been in collisons
with what others have thought
i do not no this
they tell me nothin
once i again i ask 4 my god
i lay on my pillow
look out the window
at the stars above
i see nothing from where i lay
and i just hate keep having 2 say
why cant i be in love

and im breaking out this penatenary
im sick of wondering what they see
i hate givving up
thats what so many did
they thought they were finished with
but not did they no they were in love
take a look at what i see
blinded by the publicity
no chance 2 speak one word
take a look what the sky sees
the same questione comes 2 me
what is in the eye of the bird?
so peaceful and nonharming
yet so alarming
it soars over head
inside thier brains they think
what are they doing?
\and we ask y are some dead?





JC



#11

last stand

its easy 2 give in
thats y there is suicide
but the world we live in
gives up 2 many lives

didnt ur momma ever tell u 2 swallow b4 u speak
gulp up some words and then just turn ur cheak
we lose the public eye after we lose 2 our own
we lose it all 2 the world bcuz the world is alone
every one has an aliby
its so hard cuz u have no allies
everyone u see is against you
there is nothing u could do
no olive branch could save this day
but u can try 2morro but it will come out the same
peace dosnt have a price tag, its not 4 sale
atleast thats how it is in our world

our eyes are just full of someone elses tears
and ours r dried out from lookin back on the past years
what ever happened 2 no one left behind
i cant keep up no matter how hard i try
i used 2 be the king fish in the small pond
but as u can see those glory days are gone
im no more than a freckle on the cheak u turned
blood red cuz of the hit u earned
and what i accoplished back then means nothing
now i use my wits and try 2 turn my life into something
i regret not doing things
i kill my self everyday over the consequence it brings
i see everyone so happy and it makes me smile
just bcuz ur happy makes those days look worth while
and the past some years where tatooed on my hand
but if i show the public eye it defines who i am
the eye of the beholder never gets any say
and my life gets even worse day after day
i cant live like this much longer
but they wont beat me bcuz im stronger

i got eyes inside of me
and it can see in them
i see they got feelings to
they dont all have big heads
o feel so crucified and alone
i am the glass house and they r the stone
they just keep breaking and breaking me down
i lay there on the ground
and thats when the tatoo is no longer there
they were with me when i was tuff but not when i was scared
my brain is sounding off a warning alarm
im gonna pull the plug if i dont find someones arms
2 hug me and 2 hold me tight
i need more than just the man i pray 2 at night

no one is probly reading this
bcuz they show no interest
maybe thats y im no good
i dont do what they do i do what i should
plz someone tell me what im doing wrong
i have no guidence and it wont be long
till im the one who recieves the prayers
even if im not up there
who the hell even cares
i hate being criticized 4 what i am
this isnt the last fall i will take, its just the last stand





JC




#10

fist full of dollars

i got my fist full of dollars
and my brain full of lies
nonshalauntly pop my collar
we all got wings but only some can fly
ill paint a picture of you
as a stick figure
i will sometimes honor you
other times ull see the finger
it all depends on what you say 2 me
or if u disrespect any part of my property
i take one step closer every day that passes
one step closer 2 my grave, it might seem like molasases
but if u tale one day 4 granted it is most likely 2 be ur last
if u take one step for granted ull be sitting on your ass
keep in mind that we are only sapiens
we have struggles and we need 2 keep naming them
ever error we catch is an error corrected
and every error we fix brings more errors 2 be detected
sometimes i just wonna flap my wings in fly away
but i no i must live 2 see another day
so many ppl are in dire need
so many ppl are what they plead
what it all comes down 2 is who they are
what they do and if it takes them far
ones tongue cannot be the one 2 start
it ends and comences in your heart
and i no that the rules i follow are no more than dirt
and the ppl i follow are no more than inert
i dont like them and they dont no what they like
bcuz they dont even have rules 2 live by
they all make things look so easy
but in they end they will say that they need me
it all depends on the money u make
and if ur fist is bulging with what u take
but the question 2day will be the question 2morro
could u make it through the real world with a fist full of dollars



JC


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