you only live one time

theres times when u can only be brave
and times when slack and slave
thats the difference between you and me
theres times at night when u just wonna cry
sitting under an empty sky
you dont know how lonley life can be
theres times when u feel so scared
u just break down into deep prayer
not knowing who can be listening
theres times when u just wonna give up
and other ocassions u need to live it up
and take whatever life is offering

theres times when you are all alone
and all u want is to go home
then u wish urself to sleep
dreams dont come true on there own
if u dont feed fire wood it will never grow
but now the pain begins to seep
theres times when the world and heavens seem like one
and u cant tell which one is one
its such a beautiful illusion
but fires die as fast as they grow
but how did this frustration get in so low
its such a painful confusion

theres times when bullet could sear your head
and you come out ending up not being dead
life and death go hand in hand
who would have guessed that i would come this far
in a world thats so big in a sky with so many stars
yet i still dont understand
theres times when a few yards of rope
could smash ur dreams and leave u no hope
as u watch lives crumble to the ground
and when u try to lift them up
u run into the problem of
urself to sumbling to the ground

i hear these storys about my fathers recollections
its hard to believe how one bottle of scotch could effect him
but thats the way it was
i start to see a patern grow
i would kill it but i just wonna no
what it could be if i rise above
theres times when u cant pretend to be brave
and theres nothing u could do exept be afraid
as u search for some sense in your mind
but as i continue through my days
i have come familiar with the phrase
you only live one time....





JC



inspired

love me not anymore

love me not anymore
with wind against my face
i ride alone through the night
riding after the one whose chased

love me not anymore
for nothing shall i see
fight no longer wont you plz
and find out who u can really be

love me not anymore
for i am no greater than him
eat away my crushed heart
that is tangled with lies and sin

love me not anymore
not like you ever did
put the cap on my jar
plz wont u close the lid

love me not anymore
for i am not worthy for you
you are beautiful in all ways
and ill go find something better to do

love me not anymore
for time is against my back
i wont waste another tick
for soon all will become black

love me not anymore
the flower peddle drops away
she loves me so, she loves me so
are the words i would wish to say

love me not anymore
for death shall do me part
when im gone forget about my soul
just plz wont u remember my heart

love me not anymore
i am just an honest mistake
i do wrong to all the good
and im somewhat fake

love me not anymore
i need no love to live
although i love u so
i deserve nothing that u give

love me not anymore
the wind is against my crooked face
for i have nothing to live for
as i ride after the one whose chased

love me not anymore
for this is the final verse
pound my nail into my coffin
and ship me to the hearse

love me not anymore
now that im gone, i remain stealth
indeed im dead but forever is love
only if i learned to love myself

love me not anymore
although im still in love with you
you are beautiful in many ways
although i stand out in the open..its as if i am see-through






JC

i cant believe

build up your walls
so you can watch them fall
in the moment of war
when u dont no what ur fighting for,
watch urself give in
unwillingly
i cant believe you gave in
i cant believe

nothing seems right anymore
build up my walls and watch them crumble
crumble to the floor
nothing in my world seems to truly exsist
i feel so wounded and i just need
need a facelift
trouble lingers in my mind
im sick of serching i just wonna
just wonna find, it
crawling on the empty cold floor
nothing seems right
seems right anymore

build up your walls
just so you can watch them fall
in the moment that i live for
in the moment of war
but is it anything at all
plz tell me that i will never give in
willingly
and i cant believe that you gave in
i cant believe

i soak in the gorish sight
waiting axiously for
for the sunlight
when it comes i hope it brings rain
so all the blood and tears
all the blood and tears wash away
something is pulling me down
further and further into
into the ground
leaving me with one last chance
one more time i fail
i fail again

i cant believe
anything you say to me
i cant believe
i cant

nows not the time to look for excuses
i got so many skills
and to many uses
pain is not a factor now
i will get back up from
from what ever is pulling me down
nothing may seem right anymore
i built these walls to keep me off the
off the floor

and i watch it crumble down
slowly slowly drowns, away
everything thing is gone
no i must move on, away

build up your walls
just so u can see them fall
in the moment that i live for
is the moment i will come back to for more
i dont wonna see you give in
willingly
i cant believe in giving in
i cant believe...




JC

wish it could have gone on forever...

i look through the screen and see
the only thing i want get away from me,
ive tried so hard but i couldnt muster up
the strength to finish this love crush off,
so many times i have wished
only if i didnt let it go right through my finger tips,
so i say to myself, over and over again
ill never let it happen, never again,
but when i was with her that night
under the stars and the moonlight
i found she was my treasure
I wish it could have gone on forever

some things happen for a reason
idk what im really seeing,
time and time i fail to find
take advantage of whats on my mind,
through the coldness, i feel a numbing pain
but when i looked into her face, it all went away,
her smiles great, theres always enough
room in my eyes to soak it up,
and as it still drifts away
i still havnt got a chance to say,
those special things i feel insde
when i look into her sparkling eyes,
through the beat downs, and the welts
idk if im just fooling myself,
i look back at the times we had together
I wish it could have gone on forever

im not so sure u know who u are
im not so sure if ur willing to go this far,
idc if u dont think im ture
idc, if im in love with you,
everything happens for a reason
im starting to understand what im seeing,
so many years weve been tightly teathered
I wish it could have gone on forever
but somethings to go my way
somethings arent ment to be said,
so ill save my memories for a rainy day
and ill keep u running through my head,
so many nights ive been up late
thinking o i just cant wait...
but my thoughts are spoiled by bad weather
o, I wish it could have gone on forever...






JC



A.E.I.O.U....(Y)

right in front of me

how i need you
how i want to be
everything u ever asked for
and make come true to your every dream
your wishes bring joy
and in my eyes ive seen
every little joy
is visualized in what u see
tear drops pass
and slowly roll
tingles down ur cheak so careless
at times out of control
i cannot feel
how i want to be
everything i ever asked for
is right in front of me
so i go

off to the edge of the world to find
something so precious that is mind
ive been waiting so long for somthing amazing
how was i supposed to now, it was right infront of me

with your hand
i grab on
i hold my ground and fight
instead of getting up to run
i see our world
through my eyes
as if it was the moon
with stars dotted in the sky
so i live
through everything
now how am i supposed to know
how im supposed to live
and my will
is so perturbed
i cant keep fighting off
the ashamed feelings of great disturb
and i grab on
to everything that i love
and then i hit the dirt and run
away

ppl will come
and ppl will go
but if u choose to run
ull never be able to see the great finally show

cry away
into my arms
u dont have 2 be afraid
no need to be alarmed
bcuz with me
u are o so so safe
when u fear the most
just think about my face
ill be there
right next to you
u might be able to see me
if not just look right through
me and your fears
they will go away
and disappear
just to come back to haunt u another day
into my arms
rests the greatest thing that ever came to me
u crying right into my palms
cry away

again and again something comes to me
idk how i want to be
for my whole life ive been just waiting for something so amazing
and now i finally now, its right in front of me

i see her eyes
i just want to cry
struck down by the beauty
i think i almost died
i take it in
and watch her go
i feel the most pain
if only i would have known
she was right in front of me





JC

the man that observed the world

i dont want to cry alone
i dont want to move on
i cant make it through on my own
every move i make is wrong
so many things have come to me
and ive turned them aside
what has just struck me recently
is the man that observed the world is alive

o what i would do just to look square in his eye
whisper in his gallant ear and ask him what its like
when the wind blows through the empty trees
so many things, come to me
the man that observed the world

walk alone
why dont you walk alone
look through ur window
for it is only open for awhile
now hes gone
hes gone to a better place
sometimes i see his face
i will never move on
sing a song
sing so everyone
can hear your wonderful voice
how loud is your choice
wont u give me
just an oppertunity
bcuz sometimes the things you hear
seem to disapear

the one you love
o just the one you love
is walking next to you
always by your side
even tho it appears
your love is no where near
just like every good thing
it tries to hide
you gotta keep ur head risen
to make it through
the things that r forbidden
can see right through you
no more jokes to play
no more anecdotes to say
now everything is at rest
the man that observed the world

speak to me
o wont u speak to me
say some honest words
that make me smile
can u walk with me
o wont u walk with me
i'd hate 4 u to be alone
just walk 4 awhile

yet i dont wonna cry alone
i dont wonna move on at all
i cant make it through on my own
im not prepared to take the fall
so many things have come to me
and ive turned them all aside
i have realized just recently
that the man that observed the world, is alive

walk alone
look out ur window
from the skys above
we r in the makings of love
look beside you
tell me what you see
the man that observed the world
is staring right at you and me
fill me with the greatest joy
take me away forever
as long as i can be happy
this will be remembered
for you are my girl
says the man that observed the world





JC

fallen angel (beautiful)

so now the end is becoming to get clear
i now know all my hates and fears
christ o mine has followed me
he was saught out to make me be
beautiful

time is running out
all i hear is the tick tock tick
and tears are fallin down
all i feel is the drip drop drip
most everything hasnt gone my way
but i save my crying for a better day
i want the future to come alot quicker
im sick of the small stuff cuz im a big hitter
no more rain is fallin over my head
the cloud dissappeared bcuz i pretended that i was dead
suddenly my life went from congested to spacious
everyone is now honest instead of mordacious

fallen angel sings to me
sings a song that lets me be
beautiful
fallen angel takes his place
smiles into my shattered face
and makes me believe once again im alive
the fallen angel cries

everyone deserves a second chance
they mess up once, and u cuff their hands
when u enter life u come with a warranty
and a big price tag, satisfaction guarenteed
switch into my cryin stage
so much for saving my tears for a better day
that day has come
day after day
i watch myself
cry my life away
but the best thing about a champion is rising from the fall
when i cant walk i start to crawl
when i cant speak i begin to tap
when i cant hear i read your yap
only if things in the world wernt so annal
only if there was no fallen angel

the fallen angel sings to me
lets me be who i want to be
which is beautiful
the fallen angel takes my hand
takes me to places no one can
and no i can see everything
i wasnt seeing b4

its as simple as pie
life that is
all u gotta do is look for a star
and just make your wish
holy mary wont u fight for this
holy mary im tired of this
o but im holding on
not much longer and ill be gone
im so tired of getting ignored
soon everyone will be dirtfaced on the floor
i find myself winking in the mirror now
and just when everything was gettin a lil clearer now
bam, the world enters reality
and everything that was once nice
wonders saveless like a lost calvary

time is runnin out
tick tock tick
tears are pooring out
drip drop drip
no more can i take all of this
im in a world with nothing to fight with


fallen angel sing to me
make me who i want to be
which is beautiful, so beautiful
fallen angel hands out second chances
even when i dont have answers
he takes me to that special place
fears me not, of my face
cuz im beautiful, so beautiful....







JC

the flood waters

im so glad that the world found me
i was held captive by things that surround me
im stuck in this flood and everything trys to drown me
but i hold on

caught up in the troubles
stuck in my blow up bubble
isolated from the world around me
im so glad that hell found me
i go into the darkness and escape the light
everything has been a struggle my whole life
when it rains, it pours, its o so true
when it comes i scatter, to a place far from you
in my mind i see myself as one big fear
my image is broken, to match the shattered mirror
when i jumped, i went so high, so tall
what i didnt think through was how far it was to fall
and i went down, as fast as i acended
i played my best, as if my life depended on it
the top of the tree is so much safer than the bottom
when the flood waters came, i can say that i saw em'
plz dont let me go, out there again
i watch all that you do, and im not satisfied with it


im so glad that the world found me
i was held captive to things that surround me
im stuck in the flood, and its trying to drown me
but i remain held on

i run to the hills but its no use
even tho its safer it aint bullet proof
and as the sun falls i think a part of me goes with it
i am teased and provoked by this tameless civet
mistakes are common when i am at
if your so perfect y dont u know that
fallacious beings keep on encountering you
as the flood waters are drowning you
slowly slowly it rises above
to a place where no man has heard of
and when i speak these words i am dazed in confusion
cuz im uncertain if this is real, or is it an illusion
i feel it soak all under me
it happened so fast and suddenly
i am scared, out of hope
and out there, idk
what is next to come in this mordacious flood
atleast when i run outa air there will be no blood

im so glad that the world has found me
i was held captive by the things that surround me
im stuck in this flood, now it drowns me
and now i slowly let go





JC

valuable life skills

i hate it
im suffocated
there is nothing i can do
i try hard
still dont get far
only if i could make this lie true
im still breathing
my hearts still beating
yet my life seems so dead
im so frustrated
idk how else to say it
but this is whats running through my head

im so abused by
everything inside
i am my own enemy
im so confused by
what is on the outside
idk what is happening to me
i feel so left out
idk what its all about
so i stick my nose in the dirt
and i hate
i wouldnt have done this
if i knew it would hurt

take a knife to me
set everything free
but be sure to make it quick
im so in love
with someone
if only my boot would fit
im tired of waiting
and concentrating
what is this about lies
hes so explosive
he so corosive
o but atleast he trys

steal away the night
make it so theres no light
as long as i am here with you
feel my heart pump
this is just another lump
on my shoulder next to you
your so beautiful
your a miracle
if only you would read this
you would understand
but thats not who i am
everything u hear is bullshit

i wonna go home now
i wonna die now
but god wont let me go
this is a good thing
but it hurts so bad
hes waiting for a time when i wont know
when im golden
when i am rolling
and everything is going well
then he will take me
and foresake me
as long as i dont go to hell






JC


a.e.i.o.u...y

perfect world

once apon a time so far
someone wished apon a shooting star
no one saw, no one knew
he didnt live to see the wish come true
walking through the dirt streets
with my guilty eyes starring at my feet
ppl gaze right at me
i pretend that i do not see
emptiness is beginning to fill me
im becoming the person i didnt want to be
im infamous to every boy and girl
only if i was in my perfect world


theres a time to listen and a time to speak
theres a time to fight, and a time to turn the cheak
anyways im standing here
fearing nothing but my own fear
it seems that everyone is after me
and all they do is laugh at me
idc what they think or say
ill save my glory for another day

everything could be so simple
with the moon shinning bright and the stars that twinkle
but what kinda world would that be
i would love to have everyone to get along together
no war, no hate, and just love forever
that there would be a perfect world to me

when it rains it pours right from the cloud
only if they wouldnt speak out loud
the lightning strikes with a blast
its a frighting thing, o the past
but nothing is worse than the rolling thunder
o how much i always wonder, about my perfect world

when i look at my ceiling b4 i go 2 bed at night
i wonder what that perfect world is like
i try to forget about what happened that day
i wont forget all those things they say
even when im feeling my worst
i never think about hitting the hurse
its just not my way
nor my day
nor my way
i will never care, about this life or this referal
all i will ever care about is my perfect world






JC