Jar

Like nothing I’ve never seen before
Something so deliberately untrue
It feels like I am trapped in a jar
And the only one who understands is you

I am not happy with me
And the screwed up life I find myself in
Every time I see hope it disappears
It feels like I just can not win
There is never a right time
I just can never catch a break
And every time I think I do something good
It turns out to be a mistake
God damn it I need a friend
But they don’t come cheap now days
I can’t find anything to warm my heart
Besides the sun setting on the ocean waves
And the jar I am trapped in
Has a lid tightly twisted shut
It traps me in with all the hate
And keeps out all the love
I am not happy with me
Crying just will no longer do
I look upon the world out there
And I just see eyes staring on through
It feels no body knows my struggle
How hard things can really be
I am trapped inside a jar
And no one seems to be able to see
I’m not happy with me

Like nothing I’ve never seen before
Something so deliberately untrue
It feels like I am trapped in a jar
And the only one who understands is you

Only if the whole world had brown eyes
Maybe they could see what I see
But no two eyes seem the same
Because it seems no one wants to believe
I just want to close my eyes
And feel the sunset’s breeze
Looking at me one couldn’t recognize
That its happiness I need
How many times must I fall?
Before I figure out what’s wrong
The glitch inside my mind
Keeps on going strong
Time after time I fail
And I get up just as many
I can’t remember a time in my life
When I was walking steady
I’m not happy with me
And the screwed up world I have created
I have created the next cohort of hell
In my world that’s too complicated
Clusters of thoughts come to me
And none of them ever leave my mind
I get stressed out by these thoughts
And how there’s just not enough time

Like nothing I’ve never seen before
Something so deliberately untrue
It feels like I am trapped in a jar
And the only one who understands is you

So possessor of joy
Please come visit me
Let me out of my jar
And let my thoughts go free
I have not found a hope
I have yet to find a love
You too can give up me too
And leave my heart twisted shut
I am trapped in a jar
I find myself looking out to you
I look into your eyes and it seems
That you are the only one who can see through…



JC