Aches and Pains

aches and pains
struggle inside
this is the way
i live my life
no tomorrow
no second chances
no more questions
no more answers
bullet to my left
bullet to my right
which one hits first
which one ends my life
lacking hope
lacking time
ive found my place
ive lost my mind
here i go
struggle within
watch me fall
as my heart caves in


do i deserve better?
or do i have what i deserve?
is drama and drama
all that i've earned
i want to run away
and leave this place
here i am ashamed
to show my face
do i deserve better?
or am i just this horrid
tell me please
i just cant ignore it
confusion sits in
a sphere of influence
domminated by hate
and an OD of arrogance
do i deserve better?
or do i get what i deserve?
it seems aches and pains
is all that i've earned

no body reads this
no body cares
if they would understand me
they would be aware
i am a coward
a world class nut case
i got nothing to show
as i walk down the staircase
no body reads this
no body gives about this stuff
what i have to say
now ive had enough
end to this thing
that so many times has saved me
i hate this
because of everyone mainly

i hate these, aches and pains
bullets it rains, bullets it rains
i hate this, untollerable place
it holds all the shame hidden behind my face
i hate you, and i hate me
why cant these aches and pains leave me be






JC