half departure

as you try to fight your struggle within
a bigger fight inside you begins
your heart is twisted into a knot
and all pride is taken from the battles you fought
no stars no stickers to mark your fame
your just a rookie learning the game'
you wont let go of the people of past
the longer you hold on the longer it will last
it is ok to love but selfishness is just unfair
you cant take back the ppl god wants up there

sitting at the camp fire and u have trouble breathing
your minds running in circles and you cant comprehend what ur seeing
as ppl notice your uncommon actions
you carry on with your eyeballed attractions
when the air gets thick and your body just freezes
you cant think of anything else to do but go to jesus
and then u feel your self be relieved in arms you lay
into the savior arms u now lay saved

fainted, and not thinking anymore
in the hospital just across from the gift store
the ppl that love you are worried sick
but what for, bcuz you can not handle it
you need to let go but you want to hold on
to scared to let go into the world beyond

in the end its all the same
we are all rookies in this infamous game
we cant spend time winning bcuz when all is said
we all lose as we wound up dead



JC