deep november

and once i begin to remember
all i know gets lost forever
wasted my life searching for treasure
weaving my way oh so clever
nothing now can make it better
wait one more year for the end of november
to the same god my life i surrender
under his wings he is my defender

you cant take names down over something like this
you cant walk with picket signs pumping your fist
there is nothing you can do about somthing in the past
you gotta keep your mind together and continue down your path
rage is not a feeling its more of a criminal
it pushes you over the edge and you lose all control
living in rage is like living in a penatentary
the pain is endless and it seems to last a century
insane minds cause insane thoughts
ppl that are blind see with eyes of rot
useless, in all imaginable ways
the sun dosnt come out everyday
even the sun has its way of taking a fresh breath of air
let the clouds come over so its as if the sun isnt there
when your sickly terrified and all you no what to do is cry
call for the cloud cover and find the time to whipe your eyes
crying dosnt solve any problems
you gotta stick up for what u want if you want to solve them
be the best you can be and hold on to what you got
because when the sun rises tomorrow all might be lost

deep november used to be happy time
with happy days to get some stress off your mind
the snows first birth and the grounds first freeze
a time when it seemed you got everything you need
now its a time of depression and tears
a time of anger and a time of fears
i honestly do not no what to think of deep november anymore
its a time of consistant closed and locked doors
no hope no dreams can become durring this period
im not worried about it coming its a matter of fearing it
i hate to bear so much sadness all at once
in a time that used to be happy and u got all u want

i hate to say that i hate deep november
and of the good times i remember
they are all lost in my soul forever
wasted my life searching for treasure
when it was right infront of me but i couldnt mesh it together
nothing now can make this better
to the same god my soul i now surrender
under his wings he is my defender





JC