these problems

i got these problems

that r just killing me

i am depressed

when ever i want 2 be

it just seem

i go 0 to 60

it happens so fast

i dont want it 2 be

the reason i worry

and the reason i hurry

hurry up and wait

either way im always just a tad late

its just this sadness

thats turned into madness

it hurts so bad and it dosnt go away

it eats in a little deeper every day

when i show it

u will no it

i wont do things i want 2 do

ill do things just 4 u

im not gonna cry over something i dont no

idk y im so sad but it just wont go

i gave up on fighting awhile ago

these problems r just so low

little things trigger it off

i get upset and wait till its gone

i just rest my head in my hands

i really dont get this i dont understand

whats the reason of my depressions

maybe theres 2 many untaught lessons

maybe im just crazy, correct me if im wrong

im the only one with these problems goin on

unfortunate past memories jump into my brain

i think about the deaths and i just go insane

no one can understand me

bcuz nobody else feels me

no body knows what its like 2 be me

its so hard ever 4 the lord 2 plz me

no body knows what its like 2 live with my disability

i cant think strait that 2 just kills me

and idk if my pride

is strong enough 2 hold of the suicide

i sit in the bathroom and just cry

i cant ask god cuz he has no answers

i cant ask no body cuz they dont give me any chances

i just bite my finger till its gone

but that wont solve this problem

i dont think ill ever be able 2 4give myself

i wont be able 2 live like everybody else

i wont be able 2 live as old as ppl said i should

maybe if life wasnt so hard i probly would

i just got this feeling in the middle of my stomach

im in dire need 4 an ending but i really dont want it

im just so confused right now

am i crying or is just anger coming out

im just so pissed that i cant do what they can

i rather have that than what i have i just dont understand

im blessed with all the wrong virtues

i just wonna be able 2 do what u do

but im tired of runnin

and im tired of being just so funny

tell me how my jokes are

they wont get me 2 far

its dumb that im just not good enough

i got no guts 2 do what i really love

u might see me as a big time hero

im no superman im less than zero

u might see me as some popular dude

u could do it if u really wanted 2

it might be like that but in my mind im left out

i cant talk with u bcuz u got everything figured out

u no what ur gonna do when u get older

what kinda job is becoming a soldier

who would wonna fight 4 a country thats so greedy

they might be strong but they aint sneeky

everyone talks about having such a great family

how can i think that when i have no support 4 me

right no my brains about 2 explode

im not rebuilding i just reload

im braceing my self

4 the next line of defence 2 go down

these problems r just so unreal right now

im gonna find a way 2 solve them some how

i hope

i wish

i dream

dont waste ur time on that bcuz the all end b4 they r reached

my depression is just taking over me

idc if this isnt how u want me 2 be

there is nothing i can do

no thanks 2 u

JC

not influenced, it is