crack a smile

crack a smile
as they beat u with there words
u see them laughing at you
these r things uve before heard
u no y it happens
but u cant make it stop
so u leave it as it is
bcuz uve learned from when u faught
ur alone now
u go over what they said
and every word they spoke
is grinding in your head
u no this isnt right
but u dont no what 2 do
bcuz the only thing you no
is how 2 be you
but thats not good enough
they always want so much more
ur age is all u can be
but it all goes when u open that droor
slit ur wrists now
let the sadness flow
but no matter what u do
the scar will never go
and as u pray at night
u ask him where he is at
and u just pretend
he is a foot from where u sat
lay ur hands down
give up ur soul 2 him
reach in ur pocket
and dig the blade in....

r u happy now
is this what u want
now that he is dead
but that still isnt enough
and at the coffin
u see all those scars
and u finally realize
u were his prison bars
we pray all at once at night
forgiveness wont come cheap
its not worth one life
its not worth a single tear on ur cheak
u live ur life now
tell me what its like
2 have a presence
all ways at ur side
how do u feel
noing u r the abuser
u never thought it would make you
the main killer
tell me do u regret
all those words u said
and lets us hope
those words r runing through ur head
what is the need
2 tear the rubble down
tell whats it like
2 have the rubble burried under ground
wooden face
no expresion earned
hope ur excited now
uve got another lesson 2 learn



JC




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